All the big toes were stomping in this legendary night.
The last song I wrote in Colorado: "The Song I Wrote Yesterday"
The story of my life. Of so many friends lives. The story of hanging onto your dreams no matter what. I dedicate this song to every couch I've ever slept on.
One of the last two songs I wrote in Colorado: "Easy Way Out"
Life gets rough, sometimes. I know how easy it can be to want to escape in the easiest way possible, but often times the easiest way turns out to be the hardest way. You wake up in the morning with your hair matted to your face, a half eaten burger on your chest, full of "the F did I just do last night?" Instead of just dealing with whatever was happening that caused you to spiral out of control you just added to the mess with more mess and you're a vegan so now you have to mourn that cow that probably had a family it was trying to provide for. It's an udder disaster.
I've lost so many loved ones to the battle of addiction. I wish so many times I could have held their hand and said "it's okay to hurt, it's okay to feel your pain, you are loved and supported." I wish they could have truly heard it. I wish they could have taken the harder way, and they had felt safe enough to do so.
Feeling a little nostalgic today
Do you ever feel lost inside yourself?
Like you're so tongue tied even when you're screaming out for help?
Well, I see the way you look in my eyes but I'm about to lose my mind.
Take me home from the part I don't want to be here,
I know I'm a little bit drunk but I feel like I'm wasting all my years,
Spending all my nights (all my nights), all my days (all my days), all my time (all my time)
In all the wrong ways.
Colorado Springtime 🌸 bringing me all sorts of peppiness, new writing inspiration, happiness and a sexy little rasp brought to you by allergies 🌞 here we have it folks “You + Me = Happy?”
This week I thought I'd get some suggestions from the old social media for what I should write about. There were so many heartfelt, thoughtful, meaningful suggestions I was truly moved. But all of my old friends decided to troll my page and suggest "Me." So, about an hour ago this morning I did just that. I wrote a song about all of you friends of mine, despite the trolling. There's nothing in this world that compares to the love I feel for the friends in my life, and if any of you are lucky enough to still be close to those you grew up with....you might be able to relate. Here's the messy, cheesy first draft of "My Old Friends"...but I'm okay with it, because I'm dedicating it to a bunch of hot messes.
I've been trying to finish this song for well over a year now....inspiration finally hit while I was brushing my teeth last night. Since I quit my corporate job 6 years ago and decided to life on my own terms I've faced resistance. So much resistance. Family, friends, society, old ladies on the street, my own mind, I've heard it time and time again "What are you doing with your life", "When are you going to finally settle down", "Ha yah, okay good luck with THAT", "I'm just worried you're wasting your life away" but there is another voice that outshines them all...that one that says "keep persevering, there is only one big beautiful life, give it hell sister." So I keep waking up every day writing new tunes flossing my teeth and making the decision to live life on my terms. "Plenty of Time" is the answer to the voices, the one saying "chill out, I'm going to figure this out and I'll be just fine. More than fine. I will be the best damn version of myself you have ever seen, and doing what I love to boot! Watch me." I hope all of you are giving life a little bit of hell.
Colorado is supposed to be the sunniest state in America...we're getting a blizzard tonight. Quit playing games with my heart and give me the sun!
I’ve been hard at working writing some new songs for shows that start up again next week and I promise I’ll be sharing some upbeat ones soon! But...this song is probably the most honest song I’ve ever written and its terrifying to share it. But, I know for most people life isn’t always riding rainbows on unicorns 🦄 like I love to portray. Loss happens and sometimes it hits you at the strangest time and you get crippled by the memories, painful, beautiful memories. I don’t know why Valentines Day week decided to tear me open, but my mom loved the holidays no matter what they were. So this song is for you, Jen, love you forever